Life isn't always the way we want it to be.

Sunday, July 20

i hate it when i thought things are going well,
yet end up it did not turn out the way i wanted it to be.
yes, things happen for a reason. if i am to be optimistic,
i'll tell myself that behind every bad thing, there's something good.
i tried, but i failed to convince myself on that. as always.
i'm really disappointed in myself, confidence badly hit again.
honestly, i don't know what have i done in my life to deserve
what i'm going through. i shouldn't be complaining, i know.
and i certainly can't blame anyone. maybe it all comes down to Fate.
i thought i've learnt to be strong after one emotional breakdown.
i realised i was wrong when another emotional breakdown came right after.
for now, i'll just let those tears accompany me through the night.
there's nothing i can do to brush away those tears, i'll just let it be.
i don't know how long will it take for the smiles to be back again.
only God knows the feelings in my heart, the thoughts running
through my mind. i just wish He is there to help me and guide me.
i never know that love could be so fragile, just like my heart is.
happiness doesn't exist in my dictionary anymore when i've lost
the people i love most in my entire life. it's as if life's meaningless.
someone once told me that in life you may not end up being
with the person you love most and the person you love may
not love you as much as you do. yes, that's a very heartbreaking truth.
one thing's for sure, my love for the person whom i have loved and lost,
will not die away. some say, time will heal. but maybe it will never heal.
deep down in my heart, i pray that the person whom i've loved and lost will
come back to my side again one day though it may not be possible.
still, the love will always be kept in my heart, nothing can replace that.

i will always love you,
despite losing you.
i will miss you forever,
despite your absence in my life.

waiting ...
3:31 PM